Tuesday, April 19, 2011

त्यो निश्वार्थ प्रेम


ठुलो  गर्जन  सहित  जब आकाश  बोल्छ 
लोलाएको   त्यो  धर्तीको   आँखा  खुल्छ 
काकाकुल  झैं प्याक्क भएको  त्यो  मुखमा 
बिस्तारै  मिठो  मुस्कान  डुल्छ....  
बर्षाको  पर्खाइमा  मुर्छित  उनको,  
छिया  छिया  परेको  शरीर  छ.. 
सुकेका  ती  छालामा, निला  ती  ओठमा 
आशाका सुन्दर  फूल  फुल्छ


निकै कष्ट भएर पनि,
धर्ती  बाचेंकी  छिन्  त  हाम्रा  लागी 
यस्तो   कठिन  समयमा  कहिँ  नभागी.. 
छातीको  दुध  होइन  यिनले  रगत  चुसाएकी  छिन् 
आफु  पल  पल  मरेर  हामीलाई  बचाएकी  छिन्


त्यो  त्याग  त्यो  बलिदान  केही  नबुझी  हामी, 
एक-अर्कासंग  लड्छौं  घरी- घरी 
उनको पिंडा बढाउँदै उनकै काखमा कुल्ची, 
रगत  चुस्न  तम्सन्छौँ  पेट  भरी-भरी
यसरी  आफ्नो  स्वार्थ  पूरा  भए  पछी  पनि 
एक  वचन  सोध्दैनौं  हामी ,
“आमा ! तिमीलाई  के  चाहिन्छ  भनि”


युगौं  युग  सम्म  यसरी  रगत  चुसाउंदा 
कसैले  नदेख्ने  गरी  आँसु  बर्षाउंदा  
यिनी  सुकेकी  छिन्,
भित्र - भित्रै  मरेकी  छिन्,
त्यसैले  त  आज  मेघ  गर्जदा 
यिनको  ओठमा  मुस्कान  छ 
नयनमा  आशा  पलाएको  छ 
आशा;
आफु  बच्ने  होइन ,
हामीलाई  बचाउने  आशा 
आशा;
आफु  पिउने  होइन 
अरुलाई  पियाउने  आशा ,
हामीलाई  जियाउने  आशा... 


तर  दुर्भाग्य,
जब  प्रतिक्षाको  सकिनै  लागेको थियो पल 
ठुलो  बतास  आई  उडाई  लागेछ  बादल 
उनका  ओठका   मुस्कान  ओइलाई गएछ कठै!! 
अनुहारको  त्यो ज्योति  गुमेछ  कति  छिट्टै  
पानी पिउन  भनी  खुलेको  त्यो  ओठ  ट्याप्प  भएछ 
तपक्क  आँशु  झारिन्  उनले, उनलाई  असैह्यः  भएछ..
लोलायका  ती  नयन  बिस्तारै  बन्द  हुन्छ  
मुर्छित हुदैँ  सोच्छिन्  उनी,”अब  मेरा  सन्तानलाई  के हुन्छ?”
“अब  मेरा सन्तानहरुलाई के हुन्छ?”


Thursday, April 7, 2011

….AND THE WORLD WILL SMILE TO YOU


Free your mind, relax your soul
Relish the present, forget the bygone
Open up; identify the colors in the space
Be hopeful and Make the most out of your existence
Let the sun shine on you; take a bath in light
Feel the energy; kick the impossibilities out of sight
Chase a butterfly and listen to the birds chirping,
How wonderful is their tone and the singing.
Let yourself loose with the flowing rill
Touch the serenity of a sea; tell me how do you feel?
Watch the flowers blossom and lose yourself on the fragrance
Set your foot out, embrace the rain and dance
Let the wind tickle you and provide you the bliss
Notice the glow on your beloveds’ face when you give them a kiss
Don’t curse the dark, it bestows you the moon and the star
Light the candles instead, push your terrors far
Enjoy the life as if there is no tomorrow
Be positive and you will discover no sorrow
Unearth the splendors, they are all around you
You smile to the world and the world will smile to you

Sunday, April 3, 2011

A WORLD BEYOND THE SANITY


Robert is out of his adolescence.  He turned twenty some days back. He is tall, lean and not that handsome. And unlike his friends he believes in prefect (true) love.  He is against the notion to spend the time with every possible girl and make an affair. In other words, he considers that love happens once and lasts till the eternity. And he believes he has found his true love in Patricia.
It’s been two months since Robert had first seen her. And that first glimpse was ample for him to fall over her. She appealed him extra-ordinarily. She had long curly blonde hair. When she smiled, her face brightened up as a lovely sunny day with a dimple on her face. She was tall and had great figure. She was exactly the same type that Robert used to dream. No wonder that Robert was lured by the beauty of his dream girl.
Robert is a loner. Due to his leanness, low self-confidence and the fact that he has different perception about life, he is constantly bullied by other friends around. And he prefers to be alone. He has few friends and he doesn’t usually mark his presence at the social gatherings. Moreover, this lonesomeness has increased more since the day he met Patricia.

He loves sketching and writing. So he often throws himself to the lonely place where he can completely get lost in his sketching and the nature. He has a journal which he carries everywhere. He keeps himself busy in them and just neglects the world around him.

One windy evening, he buckled up and drove to the near hillock. Content with the environment, he went past the woods. As he laid down on one of the rocks, his eyes set the sights at the distant scenes. To his amazement, unlike other days, he caught a glimpse of a striking lady just some yards ahead of him. That was Patricia and that’s how he met her for the first time.
“Hello. I’m Patricia.” She tried to comfort the confused looking Robert who was still gazing her.  It was evident that he was flabbergasted.
Robert did not even blink his eyes. For the first time, he wanted to talk to a stranger; that stranger who resembled to his dream girl. And he could not believe that she was with the first stride of introduction.
She was still waiting to Robert’s response with a smirk on her face which Robert thought was truly angelic.
“Hi, I-I am R-Robert,” he managed to reply in a shaky voice. That was the initiation of their secret relationship. Robert and Patricia, from then on, started to meet regularly at the same venue. They began to share everything and in no time, fell for each other. Robert was exultant that in spite of his weak physique and average look, she was in love with him.
Days passed on with Robert meeting her secretly. Robert started to pass most of the time in that very place with Patricia or sketching things in his room which made a further declination to involving in the family activities.  There were days when he lingered quiet for hours in his room and sometimes he was caught with strange behaviors which made no sense. On the other hand, Robert was ecstatic to get Patricia as his love. Thus, he was having the time of his life.
One fine day, Robert’s dad, worried by his son’s behavior, thought to have some chat with him in the lunch time. He asked if he was in bedlam or anything was troubling him. He urged Robert to share his feelings and to reveal why he was no more social. But Robert acted insanely; he just did not listen to his dad. He skipped from one topic to another. He did not want to talk about nothing. He acted in a strange manner and started to yell at his dad with some disorganized speech. He, then, ran away towards the woods leaving his dad muddled.
Vexed by his son’s behavior, he decided to check out Robert’s room. The moment he opened the room, he was dazzled. All the things were in disarray.  He then found the sketches of his son which made no sense. They were all pathetically penciled. Mortified with that, he opened the notebook of Robert. There, too, he found jumbled letters which were all over the place and made no logic. But somewhere in the middle, he found a sheet where he had described about Patricia and himself. But Robert’s dad was too worried to withstand all those mess and immediately called a psychiatrist.
The doctor marked his presence in no time and he examined all the things in Robert’s room. Robert’s dad managed to pour all the information about Robert to the doctor. He listened serenely how things turned worse past two months. The Psychiatrist demanded to examine his son without letting Robert know about that.
According to the plan, the psychiatrist observed Robert’s actions for quite a time. He then came to know how he behaves with his family, what he does and how he does it. But he was amazed to see him drive through the wood every single day.

So, one day, he followed Robert to the forest. And what he saw was an utter dismay. He watched Robert talking for hours, alone. There was not a single being but it seemed like he was talking to someone. Doctor understood the whole thing. He recalled how Robert had mentioned about Patricia and talking to her for hours in the wood. He, now, comprehended that he was talking to none other than Patricia.
He then drove back to Robert’s home where his dad was waiting impatiently.  Doctor approached him and said,” Patricia, the girl, who your son loves, is not real. She is just an imagination of Robert which he takes as real. He is suffering from Schizophreniform Disorder.”
Robert’s dad was left stunned.

(Note: Schizophreniform disorder is a short-term type of schizophrenia, a serious mental disorder that distorts the way a person thinks, acts, expresses emotions, perceives reality, and relates to others. Like schizophrenia, schizophreniform disorder is a type of mental illness, called a "psychosis," in which a person cannot tell what is real from what is imagined. Although schizophrenia is a life-long illness, schizophreniform disorder lasts less than six months.)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

NO PRICE FOR GRANDEUR


There was nothing unusual in her birth
She was born in the same way like everybody on earth
Unfortunately, she got birth as a daughter of poor
She was left illiterate, unskilled and that was sore

She couldn’t do anything when there was nothing to eat
Hunger thrashed her into pieces; she could feel that heat
But still she would’ve denied selling her precious body
If only she was the only offspring and there was nobody

What a pity! She was the eldest spawn of her begetter
And there were other two siblings she should look after
It was a curse that her mother died when they were so young
And because of that they had a tiny wisdom of ‘right and wrong’

The only elder she had was her father who was ignorant
He often gambled and he didn’t care of his children
In such a case she had no option but to be happily raped
For she brought smile on her sisters’ face with the money she did get

Burning her own desire she fulfilled the desires of other men
She sacrificed her life for her sisters, well embracing the pain
In spite of being that great, the society was constantly rude
The so called ‘rich ones’ detested and called her ‘a bloody prostitute’

She was not defeated at all; she was still strong to stand alone
For she had to earn to not see her siblings’ wishes being blown
The only joy she had was at least her sisters would live a respected life unlike her
But one fine day she was shattered to see a client in a brothel with her sister
This time her world crashed down utterly and she lived in agony ever after..ever after

Friday, March 25, 2011

DANCE IN THE RAIN


Vexed by the world around me
Doomed in the hustle and bustle
Embarrassed with the loneliness
Saddened with the shrewdness of people
Upset with the surrounding; I cry

Stuck in the chaos all around
Fed up with the life I am living
Abandoned in the world of agony
Desperate to gain some sympathy
Searching the peace and love, I flee

I elope to avoid the hurdles
I leave behind the ruthless place
I lurch to the cliff of a hill
Peace is what I want to feel
From the top, I see beauty far below
Craving to embrace the charm,
I want to jump very low

In the meanwhile, the wind blew
Caressing me from head to the toe
I felt heaven for the touch was tender
Ages after, I was moved with the splendor
The wind drove away the cloud,
Both from the sky and my mind
Now the sun shone best on me
Refreshing the thoughts, my realm became sunny

I forgot the pain buried within me
The world smiled spreading the glee
I saw charm all over the territory
I watched butterflies swaying merrily,
The feeling rose, as if I were a flower
I felt special, I got power.

Amazing power bred within me
All fears gone, all melancholy omitted
There was a relief, I felt light-hearted
No feelings of lonesomeness
Most of all, I had a smile in my face
Now I don’t want to die, I want to live again
I want to throw away the pain and dance in the rain….
Dance in the rain………….



Wednesday, February 9, 2011

John and his dear Granny


“Granny, look what my friend brought; a brand new PSP,” Little John rushed towards his grandmother’s bed with a big smile in his face. He was very joyful that he finally got the merchandise that he desired for. With the pocket sized silver coloured gadget, he went much closer to his Granny. But there was no reaction from her.
“Granny!!”, he shouted with fear.
With great difficulty she opened her eyes and gazed.
Her eyes were watery and they seemed tired as if she has worked all night long. Her hair was messed up and lips were dry. The wrinkles on her face were more evident and the face was swollen. She looked bluish.
The merriment John had in his eyes just vanished within a second for he had never seen his granny look more pathetic than that. He was frightened. He continued staring.
‘My dear Johnny’, she called him with sheer love. She knew that he was frightened of her condition. ‘Come sit with me.’
With trembling feet he walked closer  and sat beside her. She held his hands and asked, ’Finally you got your PSP, huh?’ She tried to distract him.
‘What happened to you Granny?’ he asked with a shaky voice instead of answering her.
‘What happened to me? I am just fine.’ She forced a smile.
Johnny did not believe her because he knew if she were fine, she would not have been lying in the bed with the terrible face, sick voice and weak eyes. His face grew pale and he could not speak a word.
“John!” his mother exclaimed, “Don’t you have to prepare for your exam? Go to your room and prepare for it. Granny is just a little sick. Let her rest.”
John was in 10th Grade and his finals were imminent. He was a hard-working guy and was one of the good students of his class. Apart from that, he had a lovely sense of humour and he was tremendously friendly. Because of that he was admired by all.
He went to his room with a very heavy heart. He loved his grandma and he could not see her that way. He opened his books but the concentration was never there. He kept on staring the books with granny in his mind.
“This way… this way”, he heard his father’s voice. He closed his books and rushed towards the granny’s room. He saw a man with long grey hair, ugly looking beard and small eyes. John didn’t like him as he looked more horrible when he smiled; he had a broken tooth upfront and a big scar on his forehead which was more like a wound created by a knife.
In no time, that ugly man and Johnny’s father lifted his Granny and put her in an ambulance. John was now clear that the ugly fellow was the driver of that ambulance. He kept staring to the ambulance while it raced towards the hospital. Nobody even told him to wipe his tears off. Those drops of tears kept on rolling down the cheek.
He went to his Granny’s bed. She was gone. He did not even know if she would be back. Beside the bed, a fresh Daisy was cheery on the table as usual. But it could not fascinate him this time. He turned towards his room ignoring its lovely scent. On the way back to his room, fishes in the aquarium danced as if they were having a great festival. With a miserable heart, he looked at them. But they were not blue like him and why would they be? Their Granny was not sick.
Days passed and his exams were going fine.  He had worked his sweat off to secure the good grades. The only pain he had in his heart was his granny was not back from the hospital and he, too, could not go visit her as he was having exam. But he was always curious about her health and asked if she was fine to his papa and mama. And they used to convey him the positive news. He used to throw a relaxed grin.
One day when he was back from his school, his mother told him to get dressed up to see her Granny. He was happy as well as sad at the same time. He was frightened if she was in serious condition. But her mother said that Granny wanted to see him because she missed him. He managed to reveal a confused smirk.
On the way to the hospital, his mind was full of random thoughts. He didn’t speak a word. No awkward looking traffic men, no funny billboard, and other stupid acts on the street made him laugh. He had just that swollen face of her Granny on his mind.
“Johnny my son”, his mother broke the silence “Granny is alright.” He kept on staring the distant object.
After a little while they were both in front of a gigantic hospital. With an increased heart rate, shaky hands and feet and confused mind state, John entered the hospital. Fair looking mother’s face gave him a boost and convinced him that granny was okay but deep down he was afraid. The smell of the hospital was always a nuisance for him. This time, too, it was no different and he had to face it. He followed his mom with a pounding heart and the cries of other patients’ in pain did nothing to help him. Finally, they both were in front of the big room.
“Room no. 414, 4th floor. Silence please.” He grasped this information with a single glance at the door and marched on. He noticed huge machines to his right and one of those showed the heart beat details of his Granny. Next to those machines was her sweet Granny, lying on the bed.
Her wrist was connected to the bottle, via pipe, which was hung just above her head. The bottle contained the water like liquid. He didn’t know what that was.
He stared his granny’s face. The face was much brighter than the last time he observed. It was no more swollen but the wrinkles were hanging loose. She seemed thinner yet beautiful than before. Her eyes were watery but not numb; they were more conversing this term. She looked livelier than before.
“Look, who is here,” she said with ecstasy, “my little prince.”
He got closer with a light heart as her voice seemed as dulcet as those merry days. She kissed his forehead and held his hand.
‘How are you, Granny?’ he asked with a smile in his face.
‘Much better now, sweetie’, she grinned.
‘Yeah, I can see that.’ He joked. ‘ You look as beautiful as a 18 year old girl.’
‘Naughty.’ She chuckled.
They conversed for some time as if they were having a party-time. That eased John’s pain of the heart as he was convinced that his Granny was getting better. In addition to that, his father also told him that the doctor’s words were positive about his granny’s health. He was happy to know that.
‘Why didn’t you come to see me these many days, huh?’ Granny pretended as if she were angry.
‘I wanted you to miss me,’ he revealed his sense of humour. He watched his Granny laughing louder. He felt greatest bliss and had teary eyes. He wiped them off with real pace to avoid her Granny’s sight at them.
‘So will you come to visit me more often from now onwards?’ she raised her eyebrows.
He wanted to say yes. Moreover, he wanted to stay there with her. But it was his exam that he should take care too. So he could not say a word for what he wanted was something he could not do.
‘He has exams, mom. And it is final. So he should be aware of that. He has to score good grade’, explained his dad. ‘So he can’t come regularly. But he will be here once in a while.’
John threw a faint smile for his father spoke the words of his mouth. Grandma kept staring at him and she too gave a sweet smile.
‘Oh yeah, I was just kidding with my prince. You need not come here often. I am getting better each day. See, I look better than before. You just keep your head cool and do your best. You need to score good marks.” Granny told John. ‘You just wait me at the home. I’ll be there soon as I’m getting better.”
 John felt awesome. He wanted her to be back as soon as possible. He came to know that she had lungs’ problem and she would be back after some days with the completion of some minor operations. Having this information, he was ready to head towards the home.
‘Granny, I will see you soon there. Take care okay?’ John said with watery eyes.
‘Aww! Don’t do that I am very fine now. It’s just about 2-3 days more and I’ll be back at the home fit and fine. You take care of your studies’, Granny told in deep voice.
She embraced him very tight and kissed him. He then headed back home and started to study with happier mind. “Just some days more and she’ll be back home”, he thought and continued to concentrate on his study.
 “Tring.. tring…” the phone sang loudly and woke him up.
“Who is calling this late?” he groaned with his eyes closed. He then turned the light on and glanced at the clock. ‘2 AM’ it showed.
The phone continued to sing in a louder voice. He quickly rushed towards the phone.
‘Ah! What a cold night?’ he murmured to himself.
He received the phone.
“Hello?”
“John?”
“Yes…”
Dad was on the phone other side. He was with Granny at the hospital. His voice was deep and depressed. John didn’t realize that as he was in half sleep.
“Call your mom, John”, he ordered.
John rushed towards his mother’s room. He didn’t know what was happening. He certainly had no clue. He forgot to ask to his father about his Granny’s health. He knocked his mother’s door.
“Mom, Dad is on the phone from the hospital,” he managed to utter only those words.
In a flash she came and received the phone.
‘What?’ she shouted in terror. ‘She is no more alive?’
All of a sudden tears started to flow from his eyes and turning to John, she said, ’Your Granny is no more son. She is gone forever.’
His feet started to tremble. He couldn’t withstand that. He landed on his knees. Tears started to rain from his eyes. He felt as if something is blocking his throat. His heart pounding and he felt an enormous pain in his chest. He could not speak a word. He thought of his Grandma. Only he knew how badly he wanted her back.
“It’s just about 2-3 days more and I’ll be back at the home fit and fine.” These words of his Grandma started to echo in his ears. The flood of the tears came down from his eyes because he knew that she would never come back. She was gone forever..







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